I'm going to be an aunt soon!

My sister is 8 months pregnant and has been telling me a bit about the lamaze and other classes she and her husband have been going to over the last few weeks. She said they showed the live birth video a few days ago and it made both her and her husband a little queasy. I've seen a few videos of this amazing event and I always cry and feel a bit sick. In fact, I watched three different women give birth in the last 1/2 hour and I started crying during every video! The idea of being pregnant doesn't bother me but the giving birth part scares me shitless. I have anxiety attacks just watching the videos of someone else giving birth and it freaks me out to no end to think of myself doing what they are doing.

In October, we are going to Florida to visit Disney World and my sister, brother-in-law and new nephew. When we get back, I will be going off birth control pills as I am 34 and, if we are going to have kids, we'd like to get started sooner than later. After having a miscarriage last summer, I'm scared of repeating that but the thought of actually giving birth brings me to anxiety-driven tears... so I've been reading about Hypnobabies and water births and anything else I can find about ways to make the process less...anxiety filled. There's some interesting stuff out there...

The heat is making me lazier...if that's possible...

We went to Bullwinkle's last night for Chris's surprise birthday party and had such a fun time! Laser tag, skeeball, and all sorts of other games got the evening going with all-you-can-eat pizza and soda, mini golf, bumper boats and more laser tag to follow. We won a ton of tickets and then the guy working there gave us a bit of a bump up and we won a lava lamp! Woo! All of Chris' friends were really nice and everyone had a blast acting like kids again.

Today is the usual laundry and grocery shopping day and if it weren't for the reprieve from the heat in Matt's parent's basement, I'd be groggy and sweaty and just plain gross feeling. It's at least 10+ degrees cooler in that basement and by the time the movie was done (we watched Half Baked for the Nth time and it's still super funny), I was a little chilly! Crazy! Now, back here at home, it's considerably warmer than that basement but still comfortable inside with the fans pulling a cross breeze through the apartment and bare feet. I need to go up the street for milk and I just don't want to venture out into the sun. We were thinking about going to dodgeball practice today and we just can't seem to find the motivation to do anything but sit and stare at the screens. That's good for writing but not so good for making milk appear in the fridge...