I'm going to be an aunt soon!

My sister is 8 months pregnant and has been telling me a bit about the lamaze and other classes she and her husband have been going to over the last few weeks. She said they showed the live birth video a few days ago and it made both her and her husband a little queasy. I've seen a few videos of this amazing event and I always cry and feel a bit sick. In fact, I watched three different women give birth in the last 1/2 hour and I started crying during every video! The idea of being pregnant doesn't bother me but the giving birth part scares me shitless. I have anxiety attacks just watching the videos of someone else giving birth and it freaks me out to no end to think of myself doing what they are doing.

In October, we are going to Florida to visit Disney World and my sister, brother-in-law and new nephew. When we get back, I will be going off birth control pills as I am 34 and, if we are going to have kids, we'd like to get started sooner than later. After having a miscarriage last summer, I'm scared of repeating that but the thought of actually giving birth brings me to anxiety-driven tears... so I've been reading about Hypnobabies and water births and anything else I can find about ways to make the process less...anxiety filled. There's some interesting stuff out there...